Me, myself and I

Will you ever know?

2006-08-28T10:52:05Z

It's gettin' kinda crazy,
'cause you are takin' over my mind.

I'm sayin'
he don't even know what he's doin' to me.
Got me feelin all crazy inside.

Ding Dong

2006-08-17T14:56:03Z

"You expect me to account for opinions which you choose to call mine, but which I have never acknowledged."

Maybe...

2006-07-13T15:16:42Z

Found this at reaperville and thought i'd give it a shot... :-)

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now.	✓ I don't watch much TV these days.	× I own lots of books. (it depends on what you mean by 'lots' of books.)
× I wear glasses or contact lenses.	× I love to play video games.	× I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies.	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
× I curse sometimes.	× I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

* * * * *

× I have broken someone's bones.	✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	× I hate the rain.
× I'm paranoid at times.	× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (no, i wouldn't!)	✓ I need/want money right now.
× I love sushi.	× I talk really, really fast.	✓ I have fresh breath in the morning.
✓ I have long hair.	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling.
✓ I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	× I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D. (i definitely could, would just take some getting used to!)
✓ I like the way that I look. (when i'm in a good mood, yes...)	× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	× I am usually pessimistic. (not without a reason! i think i'm over optimistic at times!)
× I have a lot of mood swings.	× I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
✓ I have a hidden talent.	× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	× I have a lot of friends.
× I have pecked someone of the same sex.	✓ I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop.	× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
× I have a mobile phone.	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	× I've rejected someone before.
✓ I currently like/love someone.	✓ I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.	✓ I want to have children in the future.
× I have changed a diaper before.	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	✓ I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn.	✓ I am shy around the opposite sex. (sometimes... but not with everyone..)	× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message. (i'm hardly online on IM's)
× I have at least 5 away messages saved.	× I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	✓ I enjoy some country music.
× I would die for my best friends.	× I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist. (a perfectionis would be quite right...)	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career. (ahem, not yet!)
× I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	× I am happy at this moment. (Let's not talk about that!)
× I'm obsessed with guys. (obsessed? nope, just love to flirt!)	× Democrat.	× Republican.
✓ I don't even know what I am.	× I am punk rockish.	✓ I go for older guys/girls, not younger. (most of the time!)
✓ I study for tests most of the time.	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	✓ I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s).	✓ I am comfortable with who I am right now.	× I have more than just my ears pierced.
✓ I walk barefoot wherever I can.	× I have jumped off a bridge.	✓ I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	× I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I hate office jobs.	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro.	× I have thrown up from crying too much.	✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
× I fall for the worst people.	× I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	✓ I can pick up things with my toes.	× I can't whistle.
× I have ridden/owned a horse. (i haven't, but i'd love to!)	× I still have every journal I've ever written in.	× I talk in my sleep.
✓ I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.	× I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.	× I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	× If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.	✓ I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	× I'm an artist.	× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	× I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes.	× I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	✓ I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	✓ I am extremely flexible.	× I love hugs more than kisses. (I love both too much!)
✓ I want to own my own business.	× I smoke.	✓ I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
× Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
× I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	✓ I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before.	× I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	× I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
✓ I can't stand being alone. (sometimes...)	× I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	× I'm a judgmental asshole.	× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
× I have travelled on more than one continent.	× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	✓ I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian.	✓ I can speak more than one language.	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
✓ I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
× I have no piercings.	✓ I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	✓ There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	× I like most animals better than most people.
× I own a collection of retro games consoles.	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	× I have hit someone with a dead fish.
✓ I am compulsively honest. (i do try to be honest as much as possible...)	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
✓ I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	× I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	× I dislike milk.	× I obsessively wash my hands.
✓ I always carry something significant around with me. (yeah, like my purse?)	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	× I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.	× Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	✓ I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	× I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.	× I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
✓ I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	✓ I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	✓ I have a custom-built computer.	× I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	× I've gone skinny-dipping.	✓ I've performed in three plays.
× I enjoy burritos. (I've never had them...)	× I'm Irish and loving it.	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	× Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'. (I'd do both 50/50)	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	× I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	✓ I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
× I need more time to myself.	× I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
✓ I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	× I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	✓ I love playing Truth or Dare.	✓ I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it. (I love listening to slow songs and singing them!)
✓ Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	✓ Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems. (yes, but only if it was 'that' sport....)	✓ I think this survey is particularly long.
✓ I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	× I can only hate someone that I love.	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

Sexual Feeling

2006-07-09T13:07:41Z

I saw this in faroon's blog, thought i'd give it a shot, has been a while since i've posted anything in here... so, here goes nothing! ;)

what sexual things do you're friends think about you?
LiveJournal Username
Age
Favorite ice cream
Favorite season

Thinks you're ass is tight:	tasha
Wants to lick hot chocolate off you're body:	wepwawep
Wonders how good you are in bed:	rictresa
Wishes you would screw him/her on the spot:	skyekat
Is romatically in love with you:	reaperville
Wishes you were gay so he/she could love you better:	sinistertiger
Hopes you'll take him/her to great heights (wink wink nudge nudge):	gizmo_ie
Day dreams about having sex with you 24/7:	faroon


This Fun Quiz created by Molly at BlogQuiz.Net

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Slowly, Slowly, one by one

2006-05-27T18:33:26Z

"Im not as cold as you think. Im not falling, Im just on the brink. Im floating between this world and the next. Donno where to go, As long as I am who I know. As long as I have myself then I dont care. Say what you want, Say what you will, Say anything. It wont change how I feel. I used to be so cold, And then I woke up and realised, you ARE the cold. You are the one who leaves me, Your breath upon the foggy window of my soul, writing message of hate, that burns its way into my heart. And now Im wiping them all away. Slowly, Slowly, one by one. The rest will fade with the rain when it comes." Rebecca Curulli

One Love

2006-04-08T11:18:54Z

Is it getting better?
Or do you feel the same?
Will it make it easier on you now?
You got someone to blame
You say

One love
One life
When it's one need
In the night
One love
We get to share it
Leaves you baby if you
Don't care for it

Did I disappoint you?
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth?
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without
Well it's

Too late
Tonight
To drag the past out into the light
We're one, but we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other
One

Have you come here for forgiveness?
Have you come to raise the dead?
Have you come here to play Jesus?
To the lepers in your head

Did I ask too much?
More than a lot.
You gave me nothing,
Now it's all I got
We're one
But we're not the same
Well we
Hurt each other
Then we do it again
You say
Love is a temple
Love a higher law
Love is a temple
Love the higher law
You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what you got
When all you got is hurt

One love
One blood
One life
You got to do what you should
One life
With each other
Sisters
Brothers
One life
But we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other

One

One

Could this be true?

2006-02-23T08:59:12Z

An Arab merchant lived in Isphahan. One morning his servant told him, ‘I’m going to the market-place.’ In a few minutes he was back, He was pale and trembling, His master was concerned and asked him what was wrong. The servant replied, ‘Sir, I saw Death in the market-place and when she saw me she gave a start.’ ‘Take my fastest horse,’ the Arab told his servant, ‘and escape to Samarra.’ The servant did as he was told. After sometime the Merchant went to the market place. He saw death and went up to her. ‘Why did you give a start,’ he asked her, ‘when you saw my servant?’ Death replied, ‘I was surprised to see him here as I have a date with him for this evening in Samarra.’

[this isn’t written by me, I found it in a book, but no author was mentioned]

Wild Imagination

2006-01-09T08:20:55Z

[Inspired by the comments of the previous entry! ;) ]

I can think of a lot of people who would make my imagination wild… or make me all dreamy… Although dreamy and a wild imagination wouldn’t be nearly the same thing, both can be inter-related.

People who would make my imagination wild:

Deep sexy voices either while singing or talking or both

Those who can play the guitar or the violin really well, actually the piano too or maybe all the instruments! :o

Great writers/lyricists – the definition of ‘great’ is defined by me in this case.

Okay, I can’t remember anything else right now to add to this list… I’ll edit it later… if needed.

Behind blue eyes

2006-01-02T14:41:53Z

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be fated to telling only lies

But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like i do, and i blame you!
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through

I'm posting these here, just because i feel like or maybe i'm trying to say something but i rather not write it. In any case, i don't have blue eyes. ;)

New Year's Party

2005-12-30T13:18:33Z

Found this on reaperville but it doesn't let me post the result there since it's too big..
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by limitedbythesky

ks_13's LJ New Year Party (Now At Least 9% Politically Correct!)

Started : 31st December 2005 09:04:40 PM
Ended : 01st January 2006 05:58:19 AM

Alco Money! : $ 97

Guests of Honour

keeneddie is a stable Atheist and a newbie drinker. keeneddie drank 10 Sambuccas, 2 Rums, 1 Brandy.
ks_13 is a fufilled Hindu. ks_13 drank 11 Aftershocks.
faroon is a hateful Taoist. faroon drank 3 Kahluas.
reaperville is a boring Taoist. reaperville decided to not drink because of their religious beliefs.
applehill is a sexually repressed Liberal Christian. applehill decided to not drink because of their religious beliefs.

Lovers

I don't understand it! They were sworn enemies at the start of the night and now ks_13 and reaperville appear to be in love. How fucking sweet!

The Drunkest

You keeneddie, my dear fellow are a true alcoholic! You do love your dizzy juice dont ye!

Random Events

reaperville called applehill a "Heathen Bastard!!" before attempting to baptise them over the toilet bowl with bleach.

reaperville called keeneddie a "Heathen Bastard!!" before attempting to baptise them over the toilet bowl with bleach.

reaperville had to be told on multiple occasions that the curtains were not edible

Happy New Year!

Do you believe in all of that New Years Resolution shit? If not, celebrate the New Year as you mean to go on with the ultimate new years party from hell!

Enter your name below to experience the ultimate in complete useless bollocks!

Quite a long one!

2005-12-22T09:07:59Z

Got this from reaperville a few days ago, finally finished doing it... quite long, but it's fun! :)

{my name is}: Classified
{in the morning i am}: a little slow to start commenting, I like to warm up by reading around
{love is}: one of the things I dream about, every other dream is related to it. ;)
{i dream about}: being the best in all ways
{with the opposite sex what do you notice first?}: If I can hear him, then it’s the voice, otherwise smile… I think that tells a lot.
{who was the last person u slow danced with}: In real with no one, In dreams, with quite a number of people.
{who do you have a crush on?}: Actually, I have a crush on two people, although sometimes it seems one of them is more than just a crush since I haven’t been able to get over it. I couldn’t tell you though, because I haven’t even admitted it to the concerned people.
{who is easiest to talk to}: hmmm… well, this question is a bit tricky… I find it easiest to talk, when I got closer to that person, so there might be quite a number of people who are easy to talk to and I just don’t know then or haven’t been able to warm up to them.
{have you ever fallen for your best friend}: Yes.
{who was the last person you talked to on the phone}: I called for the groceries.
{who was the last person you hugged}: I don’t think I’ve hugged anyone in ages, it’s been months, years! :o
{who was the last person you instant messaged}: Kevin, but it’s been more than two months! :(
{who was the last person you laughed with}: siblings, I guess…
{could you live without the computer?}: No way!
{what's your favorite food?}: anything which gets made fast enough!
{what’s your favorite fruit?}: hmmmmmm… I really don’t know… all are okay!
{what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?}: definitely emotional!
{do you trust others way too easily?}: No
{No. of scars on my body?} : No physical scars.
{i know}: I should be more positive.
{i want}: to be special – too many ifs and buts to this…
{i have}: too many sides to myself
{i wish}: I knew what to wish for.
{i hate}: lies and deception.
{i miss}: my friend.
{i fear}: Being alone for too much longer.
{i hear}: you! ;)
{i search}: for myself
{i love}: too much
{i ache}: for love.
{i care}: about what others think of me
{i always}: am short of good comments on interesting entries
{i dance}: not too often
{i cry}: all the time, but inwardly
{i do not always}: say what’s on my mind and in my heart
{i write}: everything silly
{i confuse}: easily
{i can usually be found}: in dreams
{i need}: someone to understand me
{friends that impacted you the most spiritually}: no one yet
{wish you saw more often}: the night sky
{wish you could meet}: celebrity – Justin Timberlake, I want to know if he’s really all that caring or not.
{wish you knew better}: many of the people I know online, I wish I knew them better
{knows you best}: hmm.. there are two or three people who know me quite well, but even they don’t know me well enough or in all ways
{best outlook on life}: -----------
{most paranoid about}: people hating me?
{sweetest person ever known): I’ve been discovering quite a number of people who are sweet, even if they don’t show it.. hard to name one.
{most annoying thing you do}: care for people too much and then end up getting hurt!
{biggest mistake you've made this far}: I think my life is a BIG mistake
{describe your personality in one word}: Reserved
{the physical feature for which you are most often complimented}: erm… none I can think of..
{a smell that makes you smile}: Fruity smells
{a city you'd like to visit}: Far too many.
{a drink you order most often}: Strawberry Milkshake
{a delicious dessert}: Chocolate Mousse
{a book you highly recommend}: Pride and Prejudice
{the music you prefer while alone}: Depends totally on mood.
{a film you could watch over and over}: A walk to remember … it makes me cry too much, but I love it too.
{a TV show you watch regularly}: none, I listen to the radio all the time.
{you live in a(n)}: dreamland
{your transportation}: a pair of legs!
{your cologne or perfume}: keeps changing…
{under your bed or in your closet you hide}: my own Johnny Depp, who I can take out and devour anytime! :o
{something important on your night table}: a glass of water to get wet :p

On a side note

2005-12-21T08:53:19Z

This happened a few days ago, I was listening to the radio, I was away from my computer at that time and I came up with such a good subtitle for this blog. Well, I don’t know if it really was good, but I liked it and was quite satisfied. I mentally made a note to change it when I got online…. But I forgot, totally and I just can’t remember it at all since the past few days… I have no clue whatsoever of what it was… I’m feeling pathetic, firstly I can never come up with stuff when I want to, and later when something good enters my little brain, it vanishes! I don’t even know if I’ll remember the same thing again. ::SIGHS:: Why do these things happen to me?!

A new blog

2005-10-08T19:39:58Z

My first blog entry here and am not sure if i'll be updating this too often, but i wanted to have an id here so i could stay in touch with my friend's blogs. So, here we go again... ;)